April 1st, 2026
Read: Mark 14:1-11; Matthew 26:14-15
Sometimes called Spy Wednesday, Wednesday is the day we recall the journey of Judas and his decision to betray Jesus. Knowing what we know on this side of the story, it’s easy to cast heavy critiques on Judas and think down on him because of his actions. Today, we think about Judas’ journey from his side of the story. He, and honestly most of the other disciples, were still trying to wrap their minds around what was happening and what Jesus’ words meant. For thousands of years, they had waited for a Messiah who they thought would be a military leader who would defeat Rome. Then Jesus shows up, and like we have been talking about in KidZone this month, he flips the narrative upside down.
Instead of overthrowing Rome, he surrenders to them. Instead of defeating Israel’s enemies, he tells his people to love their enemies. Instead of amassing funds for a successful ministry in the world’s eyes, he sends his disciples out and tells them not to take anything with them. This paradigm shift was not easy to follow, and while Judas’ actions led to the arrest of Jesus, all of the disciples ultimately deserted and denied Jesus. The whole thing just didn’t make any sense, and they let their confusion lead them away from Jesus instead of towards Jesus.
When my children are angry, I often say something like this: “You can punch a pillow or go outside and have a good scream – you can even yell at God because he can handle it – but you cannot hit your brother (or kick your toys, etc., etc.!). My goal with these words is to help them learn that even in their big, little feelings, they can run to God. God does not need them to have it all figured out. He just wants them to come.
If we are honest, I’m sure we could all admit that we, too, have denied and betrayed Jesus. We choose our own selfish desires. We let our doubts overtake us. We keep silent when we should speak up. We deny the gift of grace because it just doesn’t make sense.
Today, as we get closer to Good Friday, take some time to reflect on your own human frailty – your weaknesses, limitations, doubts, and failures. Then, in that space, instead of turning away, turn towards Jesus. It’s true – he can handle it.
Prayer from the Book of Common Prayer: Lord, I confess that I have sinned against you, in thought, word, and deed, by what I have done and what I have left undone. I have not loved you with my whole heart, and I have not loved my neighbor as myself. I am truly sorry, and I humbly repent.
